sweet faker

hurt, confuse, strangle me

again

wander around aimlessly

knowing you are no good for me

i'm holding my breath

as i walk over your broken soul

i'm holding onto my dreams

as i seal my heart

with sorrow

you'll never be me

you'll never feel the rift

that you left in me

i'm telling you one more time

you're blessed

by not being me

you're blessed

by not feeling the rift in me

i'm looking for serenity

in the closet full of skeletons

i'm reaching out for some sanity

in the land of everlasting lunacy

leave, lie, betray me

don't even say you're sorry

nothing matters anymore

you can't hurt me

and

i can't go down anymore

so, bring it on, my sweet faker

leave, lie, betray me

don't even say you're sorry

no one wins this time
not even you, my dear, deary

hill

i'm walking down the hill
leaving the city of broken hearts
i'm trying to hear your voice
trying to remember your eyes
everything is so blurry
everything is so plain
someone stole the taste
of this sad lonely life
there used to be flowers
there used to be glee
hopeless minds and lost dreams
are now that i can only see
where did everyone go?
why am i on my own again?
infinite questions are wandering
did i just lose again?
i'm still trying to learn
how to stand on my own
i'm still trying to forget
what's happened and what's gone
you said it wasn't worth my tears
you said it was a waste of time
so, i'm leaving this place
i'm walking away one more time

state of mind

i'm at a place where I just stand and watch all the bullshit around me, let myself bewildered by little people's stupidity and shallowness, let them think i'm the fool, let them enjoy their big egos for some more time :) i know, there will be the day, when everything will be exposed, when everyone will get their perfect share of justice, so... yeah... life is wonderful in the end.

zamanin azaldigi, umitlerin tukendigi, sevgisizligin sinirlarinin zorlandigi, akil sagliginin tehlikeye dustugu, ruhun bedenden cok uzaklarda ikamet etme safhasina gectigi bu diyarda tek basima ayakta durmaya calisiyorum.

aksamlari el ele yurudugumuzde yerde olusan golgemizi ozluyorum.

aglamaya bir son vermeli, tekil golgeme alismaliyim.

b.